Another Love Poem

Written Sometime in 2005

Photo by Óscar Salgado on Unsplash | Alterations in Photoshop by David C. Roberson

Something of a follow-up to Love Poem, and certainly inspired by the same relationship, this poem was written at different points in that relationship and left unfinished. Recently I found what might have been an intended separate draft, and merged it to finally finish the piece.

Another Love Poem
2005
David C. Roberson

I wrote you a letter,
and whole sections 
were just jabber.
Most of it didn't matter,
but the point was
that I love you.

And that's more than
I've ever actually said,
in any form,
written or read.
It's just the way I feel.
I don't want to click my heels,
& fall away from this dreamland alone
(there's no place like home).

On the doorknob there's a note.
"Don't disturb"
But I'm alone.
I'm cuddled close
to the shirt you left.
It still has your scent
from the night you slept
next to me.

But it’s better than when
you are here.
I have proof that you once
wanted me near.
Without your sharp tongue
or your snide sneer,
or living in fear of your switch–
I’m never aware of the sitch.

I love you, but
your love is shaky.
You adore me until
you want to break me.
I go to take a piss,
you’re scared that I’m leaving.
I am scared that you’re unsteady
I am thinking I’m not ready.

I love you, but
“In-love” is pushing.
You love bomb 
right before you’re ambushing.
Self-harm threats
make me lose my footing.
You feel empty.
I feel fallen.

I wrote you a letter,
and whole sections 
were just jabber.
Most of it didn't matter,
but the point was
that I loved you.